I'm in a lot of pain as of late, and on a plethora of medications which they keep changing on me..just trying to control the pain while they figure out the problem...

UTI, turned into kidney stones for 3 weeks..in which i worked in agony with  no offer of pain management....finally went to the ER (again) when i couldn't take it any longer, and was FINALLY given a CT...only to find there were no stones.

So then they called it spinal nerve damage, and set up an MRI..but finally started me on medications to try and control the pain..meds that made me loopy and only increased my depression over this whole thing....

MRI showed a bulge in my L5, but they claim that it's not enough of a bulge to be causing THIS much pain...but have still gotten me into physical therapy, because i've FLATTENED my spine, in my overcompensating for the pain...i've also misaligned my hips, because the pain is mostly coming from my left side, though it reaches out to my Right, so I hadn't really noticed that.. it was my Physical Therapist that made it clear to me, in her poking/prodding torture..and in how she showed me i'd screwed up my hips and back in protecting mainly my left side... =/

Then i have another CT, with contrast this time, because my doctor is confused by the fact that i'm getting worse... I actually can't Urinate without straining..i get dizzy at random moments while working, the pain is just..so intense i vomit a lot, and i'm not really digesting well..as i tend to vomit things i've eaten even 2 days before... (sorry for the TMI).

So this new CT (with iodine contrast) showed an abnormality in my spleen, but they wont tell me anything else....they've immediately scheduled another CT though, for monday morning, double contrast... So hopefully answers soon... =/  maybe a quick Splenectomy is what i need, and then i can just go back to work o-o

while the doctors still investigate my mysterious breast pain..since mammograms and ultrasounds have all come back clear... and the plastic surgeon said that it's absolutely not caused by size (though he still says mine are too big for my frame and are the cause of a lot of the shoulder and neck pain i've always suffered) so they want to do a reduction...he claims that its likely that even after the reduction, while the other pains will be alleviated, i'll still have the sharp stabbing pains..because he also can't explain them.... :/ suck

So with all of this going on...thats why my commissions are going to continue to go very slow/be on hold. I apologize that it seems like i'm just ignoring you guys, by uploading OTHER art...It's just that i can do other personal art without worrying about my emotional/pained/drugged state making sub-par o-o  I can work on it without stressing about doing it Right.....it's art i can do to let out my stress, instead of add onto it.... Either way your stuff WILL get done...it's just taking....time... :c i beg for your continued patience.

TO DO:
-- wolf transformation- 5 frames - flat colored. (paid)
-Kaspar (#599691)(fp) - human memorial- flat colored sketch (paid)

COMPLETED:
(-Tay (#462614) fp)- 3 character flat colored sketch (paid)- [link]
(.riz. (#354854) on fp) - Reference style picture.- [link]
(-Starr (#841739)(fp)- Cat/Dragon hybrid design- flat colored- [link]
-.Nephire. (#226245)(fp)- 3 Cub litter commission (paid) [link] [link] [link]
-sacrilege || (#272742)(fp) - base commission (paid) [link]
- Tay (#462614) (fp)- Finish Arrow-girl as her Avatar-based character [link]
-Mio (#1077077)(fp)- cleaned up colored sketch of this character [link]